Isolation

Listening to 'Alvida' by James now, powerful song. Nice one after a while. Makes one's mind numb.

Has been spending a long time in my room alone, about 20 hours a day in a single room, with my system, books and myself. Getting a lot of time to think,to reflect, to contemplate, to plan. Quality time. The self-inflicted isolation is comforting. It felt boring initially but now getting to like the seclusion. Though not entirely out of human contact, still preferring this remoteness. The reclusion is making me get sober and organized. Mentally preparing for a lot of things to come. Know a lot of challenges are waiting just round the bend, so getting ready to face them. Have my own Everest to climb; everybody has their own.

Was getting a bit apprehensive initially thinking about all of that, but now the tranquility is setting in. Scrutinizing my mistakes, discovering the strengths, weighing the options it's a journey that maybe will decide how I define my career. Though losing precious time(exams are on) still it's important for me to realize my goals, the way I want my future to get moulded. To set my priorities right, what matters most to me.

Now it's time to walk the path.

Exam Preparation

It's bloody hot in here,almost like a furnace. Slept at 12AM but it was sweltering so couldn't help waking up at 3:30AM. Followed the next rationale thing that any self-respecting student would do 6hrs before exam. But after one-n-half hours and 7 fags couldn't take it any longer. Went out for a jog and had a bath, returning after 25min.

While jogging it was really refreshing(though the T was sticking to my back) to see the dawn gradually approaching. Wondered why don't I wake up early more often. Maybe 'coz it's a bit punishing to wake up by 6:30 when you go to bed at 4:0.

Feeling a bit better now. So sat down a little longer to prepare for the rendezvous. Am feeling extremely hungry but can't go for a bite now. So thought would be a good distraction to spend some time over here. It's time to wrap up, wishing me luck.

Six Movies

Exams are 2 days away, but I'm watching a few movies now, each different from the other. Many people do a lot of things to get relieved from the stress, I for one, watch movies.

I have seen six of them in the last 2 days.

1.The machinist.
2.The perfect catch.
3.American History X.
4.Edward Scissorhands.
5.Black cat,white cat(An Italian Movie).
6.Letters from Iwo Jama

The first one is a Psycopathic thriller where Christian Bale transformed himself into a human skeleton(literally) to adapt to the role. After watching this movie my grey cells started acting funny. Have this weird(that's the term used by a friend to describe me) idea of testing how many days I can go without any sleep, once the exams are over.

The second was a bit of relief with a cute, mushy romantic story.

The third, a movie on racial hatred with Edward Norton delivering a powerful performance.

Scissorhands an off the wall romantic movie by Tim Burton. Johnny Depp as always leaves his mark.

The Italian movie is hilariously funny with the situational comedies. Certainly recommended to cheer you up if you are in a gloomy mood.

The 6th that I finished just now and certainly one of the best war movies I have seen, shows the WWII from a Japanese perspective though directed by Eastwood. Captivating cinematography,moving storyline and a powerful performance by the lead actors (specially
Ken Watanbe) certainly brings it on a par with Platoon,The thin red line,Saving pvt Ryan,No man's land etc.

During this peregrination through the six movies I was drenched in emotions; once somber, again cheerful and latter contemplative. Enjoyed them thoroughly and felt grateful to all the movie fraternity for bringing out such entertaining features. Will find out soon how enjoyable my exams will be. :)